Myopic Squinting

On these late nights when sleep eludes me my mind sweeps into overdrive mode. Questions upon questions then more questions with seemingly no answers.

Myopic is the word that keeps coming to me recently. This event totally confounded me as a mother….When my middle child was in third grade her teacher sent home a note. “Please have your daughter’s eyes tested. I have moved her to the front row and she still is having problems seeing the board .” The only vision tests she had ever had at that point was through school testing. A week later, after a visit to the eye doctor, I was told she had a pretty heavy case of myopia. Her father’s family had vision issues but I was unaware of exactly what this meant. When we emerged from the office, once her glasses arrived, I was speechless as she looked around outside in complete wonderment. “Mom, I didn’t know you could see individual leaves on the trees.” As I had never had any vision impairment it had never once occurred to me that she wasn’t seeing properly. To her trees and grass had been a blur of color and she thought it was normal. I felt like a horrible mother…how had I not realized she couldn’t see.

There’s a verse in the Bible that says we now see as in a hazy mirror but one day we will see clearly (my paraphrasing there). How true that is when I go down that overthinking path. I plead for direction because my vision is so clouded in my human understanding. God has the big and clear picture and I need the faith that one day He will hand me the glasses of perfect vision and understanding. All I need right now is to trust and keep the faith in Him who loves me beyond understanding just as I love my children.

How often we see things through our perspective that we think are normal but there’s that blur that causes us to see what really is not there. Perhaps on these nights I need to just look out at the stars and the massiveness of the skies and know I only see a tip of things. It is not my job to figure everything out but to have faith I will see clearly when the timing is right.

This journey of life has a lot of blurry messy things. We need to squint a bit, at times, to find our way….but to learn to trust in the our own unique journey and enjoy every second and blessing we have. Blessings abound dear ones just keep squinting….keep squinting.❤️🪷