Storms…

As I watched the river’s waters rise this morning I felt a pang of uneasiness begin to grip me. Flood waters have unnerved me as far back as I can remember. As a child, in Arkansas, I lived in an area that flooded fairly frequently. The National Guard rescued us from high school during a flood. I lived in New Orleans as a young adult and waded chest deep waters to get to my apartment and never once considered the alligators or snakes that could have been present. We do what we have to do at the moment to survive.

So much of life is like those flood waters. It can sneak up gradually or rise quickly as in a hurricane. We can choose to react in fear, wade through blindly, wait for someone to rescue us or simply step back and choose to watch and see where the waters go. We have no power to stop the tumultuous waters from rising or the power to stop much of what happens in our lives as others can dictate what we have to endure for a time. What we can do, however is make a decision that they will make us stronger or collapse in fear and give up.

Some days we may feel stronger and some days feel resigned to what is the point of going on or even caring,

Tonight, the river waters have receded but my heart is now choosing whether there is a point to the chaos and storms…to ride things out and see how they play out…or just give up.

I am tired! This journey of life can be overwhelmingly exhausting. Time to take a break❤️