Faith in the Madness…

“We are given only a little spark of madness, you mustn’t lose it.” Robin Williams

As I sit here after 2:00am, in the beginning hours of New Year’s Eve, sleep eludes me.

Upon opening WordPress I found this quote from Robin Williams, I had jotted down over a year ago. There definitely are no coincidences. Over the past several years, perhaps decades, I lost myself somewhere along the way….that spark of madness so to speak…where I found life funny and curiously interesting..that spark that found laughter everywhere…my spark was lost. Not overnight but slowly and steadily burned dimmer and dimmer til I no longer felt it.

Having not felt well the past few weeks there has been hours of staring at the ceiling and wondering where I am headed…directionless…yes directionless best describes my present state of being. That childlike faith that sees simplicity in all things… not looking for deeper meaning…just being in the moment…the funny and happy moment of now….where direction wasn’t considered. Now as an adult I think I need that back. We definitely need to have a clue about our future but maybe..just maybe it’s ok to not have it all figured out. Stop beating our heads against the wall with worry over everything.

Not sure where I’m going with all this but I truly believe that if life is really what we make it…then…there is hope that it can turn around and be better. That we can find our way back to that innocent enjoyment of today…just today. Faith that tomorrow will take care of itself…faith…faith that was also lost with that spark of madness…

Moving into 2023, faith will be my word…faith that it’s ok to just be and breathe…faith that I will once again find that laughter that was lost…faith that things will indeed turn around..faith…just faith. Simplicity in knowing that’s really all any of us need…faith.

My prayer for all of us in 2023 is that we all find our direction in a child like innocent faith that tomorrow will take care of tomorrow..that today we will breathe..and find our spark of madness once again. After all, life’s journey is about the madness of finding the laughter everywhere even when we don’t understand it. ❤️