One foot in front of the other….one foot in front of the other…one foot in front of the other… I’m tired of doing this…I don’t want to do this any more…
It feels like meditating and and trying to quiet that monkey mind…breathe in.. breathe out..breathe in (did I call that client back, is the zoom at 1:00 today…oh wait) breathe in…breathe out…focus..focus (was that birthday gift ordered…is there food for tonight’s dinner..ugh stop) breathe 1..breathe 2..in 1..out 2….I CANT do this right now!! Why can’t I DO this..too much in there to quiet..but that’s the point..stop! Will I evvver stop and be happy..stop waiting for this sadness to end…stop searching for SOMETHING..? For life to change and all the broken pieces to fall into place…
Ever felt like this trying to sit still and quiet the mind? It feels like a million pieces of glass from a million different places clanking around in there. I’ve written about our life mosaics and their beauty unfolding as each new episode of our story reveals itself. Those are events minute and enormous that define us and our journey. It is however the kaleidoscope of our minds that make up everyday living and feeling. All those hundreds of pieces of glass clanking and reshaping forming a different pattern with every turn. I think of the beautiful pieces of sea glass I’ve seen..coming from something totally broken then tossed and tossed in waves (waves of uncertainty?) to have the edges polished smooth from the constant pounding into a thing of beauty ..beauty we collect and prize.
This search, this unrelenting need, to find contentment, happiness and joy always leads to the same conclusion (and I have stacks of books I’ve read and or am reading..including 100’s of Utube hours on thoughts, vibrations, you name it) it’s myyyy choice what I choose to believe and think about life..my life. Man that monkey mind is off and running keeping me off center, off focus and off just off.
In 1…out 2…in 1…out 2
Keep turning that kaleidoscope and if you aren’t happy with that one just turn it again. Yes, focus is a tough one…but keep breathing in and out…keep turning that beautiful kaleidoscope of your mind..keep remembering it’s the journey of life that’s the treasure…aren’t all those broken pieces of glass beautiful?🥰
Santa Fe a few years ago you just turn the bowl to get different views of the gems ..you simply move the pieces around then turn the bowl …just like life move the pieces around, some more lovely than others, then spin the bowl 🎨❤️
Keep calming your mind…keep turning that kaleidoscope and above all keep repeating…I’ve got this ..I’ve got this. You’ve got this I believe in you ❤️
Reflections on Life’s Journeys 