One thing is for absolute certain….there will always be change.
Our journey is humming along. The sun is shining. Great tunes on the radio . Our last business appointment was fantastic. Great dinner planned for the evening…..and you get the call from your surgeon…your breath catches as you hear…it was good you pushed for the biopsy..it is cancer!
After my sons death I knew there would never be anything in this life that would be worse. That still stands true!
There is something about hearing those words spoken directly to you, “You have cancer”, a brain freeze of sorts. There’s no history of cancer in my family. Why right now? I didn’t think, Why me just Why NOW?!
It has just been a few months since I helped my sister try to sort through her life after loosing her husband of 50 years. A part of me snapped during those weeks with her. My life has been so unhappy for so many years… I’m changing it…
Getting back to the gym and back to eating healthy again was making all the difference in my attitude. It also helped me see the harder changes that needed to be made and I’m still working through them. So WHY NOW?
Knowing what I know about heartache and gut wrenching anguish along side of just life in general…..nothing happens without a reason…there are NO coincidences…these glitches in our plans…have a purpose and reason to them!
My cancer is non aggressive and, as cancer goes, easily treatable . On the other hand I have a friend going through far more with her breast cancer than I am or will. We have been able to pull along side each other and offer support. There are things I have been able to direct her to that she would not have known about. My lumpectomy was yesterday and I will use the mistletoe complimentary approach for my treatments. Had it not been right NOW I could not be along side her!
The Kelly Clarkson song , “What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger”, could not be more true.
A couple of days ago a friend called me, a steel magnolia, and I believe I agree with her. The strength, as a woman, I possess is unprecedented. Along this journey I have endured more than most women will ever have to endure (there are those with farrrr worse circumstances) and looking back I know those “glitches” have defined a mental, physical and faith based strength to which very few could stand through.
Grab your glitches with both hands and give birth to the steel you have always had within you. It’s there and part of your journey.
Reflections on Life’s Journeys 